Friday, July 23, 2010

Is love all you need?

All you need is love, love, love is all you need! It’s cliché, but is it true? In the IVF world is love all you need? I would say on some levels this is what gets you through cycle after cycle. But isn’t love all you need in the fertile world to make a baby? In the infertile world you need medical procedures, tons of shots, surgeries, sterile operating rooms and many doctors to even give you a chance of getting pregnant! With all of this going on it is so easy to leave the loving part out of the equation and just go through procedure after procedure. I think this is what tears most infertile couples apart. But you have to remember what the motivating factor behind all of this is! It was your love for one another that has brought you to this point. I know that IVF brought Marcus and I closer together and our love has grown stronger through the craziness of IVF. There is nothing that tests a relationship more than surviving an insanely difficult experience together. I would say that our infertility story is a love story!

It is so easy to focus on my own struggles and heartbreak from these experiences but I have to remember that this is both me and my husband’s journey of heartbreak to joy! He was right by my side through it all. Holding me when I was broken from a failed cycle, giving me shot after shot, holding my hand through cycle after cycle and sitting right beside me through all of the procedures. I could not have made it through the past almost four years without him by my side. Our love is stronger and all we did need was for God and love for each other! This is what has brought us on the other side with a stronger love than we could have ever imagined!

Friday, July 16, 2010

It happened in a blink

On Wednesday, June 30th I experienced something that I wish no one would ever have to experience. I was at work eating lunch with my dad (I work at a family business), and a guy walked in and pulled a shot gun on us and rob us. In the blink of an eye my life was changed. The thoughts going through my head were my baby, protecting my baby and please don’t let my dad get shot. It never crossed my mind that I would get hurt. My heart was racing, but God was there with us. I knew in my heart that if we just gave him what he wanted that he would leave and not hurt us. Since then they have caught the guy and that is very comforting to us all. In some strange way I feel God had prepared me for this. He knew this was going to happen. I don’t know why he did not stop it from happening; all I can do is thank him for protecting us! There is a lot of healing going on and each day I think we all get a little better. There will be positive things that come from this horrible June day….I know!!! I am now always conscience of my surroundings and my guard is up. It is amazing the things you can go through with God by your side! He is amazing and I thank Him every day for protecting us!

The baby and I are doing well. At my last doctors appointment my blood pressure was higher than normal and I had not gained any weight in a month but after everything I had just gone through my doctor was okay with that. At my next appointment I have to do my Glucose test, I am worried about that since I have been Hypoglycemic my entire life.

I feel like I am running out of time to get everything finished. This pregnancy is going by way too fast!!! We do have a crib and dresser and are still looking for an antique wardrobe. We still need to paint the crib and distress it (to be done by my dad & sister), but I know that will get done. I am so excited fixing up her nursery and getting all these baby items in our house seem surreal to me! I hung some of the clothes that we have received as gifts in her closet and Marcus opened the door and was shocked to see those little clothes in the closet! To say the least we are enjoying this pregnancy experience immensely!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Baby Girl!

I went and had a 3D/4D ultrasound and it was a great experience! Baby girl was not very cooperative but we were able to get a few good pictures of her! She has been in the same position for the past two ultrasounds which surprises me because she is very active in there. She was all cuddled up and in some pictures she is hugging her umbilical cord. She is already measuring 2lbs and has a long torso! Looks like she might be taking after her mother. I was a big and long baby. We had a great time sharing this experience with our parents and my sister!