Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Emotional Leap of Faith

I am home now and trying to get back to normal. It was sooooo nice to see my husband after 10 days away. I know this might sound crazy to some of you, but it was great to be home and get to clean my house, clean up my yard and just do normal everyday things. I dreaded going to the store though, but I had to go so we could have some home cooked meals. One night Marcus and I faced the craziness together. To my surprise it was not bad, so maybe our plan of going late at night worked out. We now have food and a clean house and are finally able to relax and try and get back on track with our plans.

Our infertility plan of action has changed many times. We decided to go forward with the surgery, so when I got back from my hurrication I scheduled the surgery, but then after talking some things over with Dr. L we decided to put off the surgery and go in a different direction. We are going next Wednesday (October 8th) to talk to one of our doctors to talk through this new plan of action and ask some more questions. These have been the hardest decisions we have ever had to make in our life and Marcus and I just want to do what is best in our situation. Please just pray for our peace of mind that we are making the right decisions along this journey.

I have tried to not get down or have bitterness during this time, but some days are just better than others. One day when I was struggling with these emotions my devotional said "whenever you are feeling discouraged make sure you are giving thanks for something in your life and discouragement will leave you." So, when these feelings creep up on me I just remember the many, many blessings God has given me and I know that one day it will be our day to have a child. Until this day comes, God is sculpting Marcus and I to be great parents. This book I am reading describes this time in a couples life as "an emotional leap of faith, a time of truth when a couple is challenged in ways that they might not have imagined possible." I could have never imagined that Marcus and I would be going through these struggles, but some how we have made it through one obstacle at a time with our love for one another growing more and more with each obstacle we face.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

10 days!!!!!

I am now in Round Rock and have been here for awhile now. I am ready to be home, I have not seen Marcus in 10 days!!!!! We are planning on heading back home tomorrow, so hopefully everything works out and we can make it home. I am with family here in Round Rock and as of this morning only 2 of us have power (I am one of the two). Zoe has been doing really good and getting spoiled sleeping with me in the bed. I think every day we go to the dog park for her to run around and get some energy out!!! Did I mention that I miss Marcus????? It has been difficult being here without Marcus, but thankfully I have family to keep me occupied. 

I do have some family that had pretty major damaged to their homes. Please pray for them (Alex and Chris), because the past few days they have been trying to save some things, but I don't think there was much to save. They will be without a house for some months to come and I know that will be very hard for them. 

On positive note: Hopefully I get to go home tomorrow and see my husband!!!! Have I mentioned that I miss him????? Hopefully it won't be long before we can all get together and share our Hurrication stories.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Many, LA

I hope everyone is doing okay and y'alls homes are okay. I am in Many, LA at a resort on Toledo Bend. It is really pretty here, but there is not anything to do around here. Yesterday morning we lost electricity here and it was off all day long until late last night. We thought we were evacuating so we would not have to deal with power outages, but Ike found us here in Many. It was soooo hot all day long. I thought it would not be bad because I have been camping alot but this was much worse because when you are camping there is a breeze, not so inside a hotel room. I also didn't like going back to a pitch black hotel room by myself. Marcus stayed at the hospital to help out with the needs there. So once again Zoe and I evacuated without Marcus. I am proud of him for staying and helping them out, but I miss him!!!!!!

We are trying to find somewhere else to go, because it is very boring here and if we are going to be stuck somewhere for weeks we need to find something to do. We have rooms in Round Rock, so we will probably end up there. My dad, brother-in-law and uncle went back today to clean out refrigerators and check on every one's homes. Poor guys, that is a very dirty job to do. So far no one here has any major damages, which we all are very lucky!!!!

I miss you all so much and hope y'all are all having fun on your Hurrication!!!! Hopefully it won't be long before we are all back together in Mid County. Love you all!!!!!

I will try and update my blog and let you all know where I go next.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Cardboard Testimonies

This is an awesome video!!! It is kind of long, but well worth watching!!!!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Where does the time go?

I know I have not posted in awhile and I really don't know what I have been doing???? Where does the time go???? Well, this is what I can remember that has happened since last post.

Hurricane Gustav:
Marcus and I were going to evacuate, then we were going to stay, then I decide to evacuate by myself (with my sister and her husband) because we had hotel rooms that we could not cancel. Marcus could not come because he had to work Tuesday morning. So, Zoe and I left for Round Rock at 5:30 am Monday morning (Zoe slept the entire time). This was the first trip with Zoe on a long distance car ride and hotel stay and I can say that she was really good. I have family in Round Rock so we went to their house when we got there and Zoe was able to play with their Labs, along with the many other types of dogs there. I think there were a total of 8 dogs and 1 cat at their house plus people (good thing they have a big house)!!!! Tuesday was Zoe's 3rd birthday (I know those of you that don't have animals or like animals think I am weird, but oh well) so we went to a nice dog park in the area and to Petsmart afterwards to get a treat. You also have to realize I don't have a child, so I guess that is why I do this with Zoe. Then back home Wednesday morning. I did get a souvenir to remember Gustav by on the way home....a huge crack in my windshield of my car!!!! I called for someone to fix it and the guy said that it was too bad to fix, so I guess I have to get use to it.

Canoe Trip:
This past Saturday I went on a canoe trip with Marcus's family. Here are some pictures from that trip. We had a great time!!!!Someone (I won't mention any names) forgot to pack our lunch and all we had was bread and Pringles...so we had chip sandwiches!!!! Take one piece of bread, pile on whatever flavor Pringles you want, then top it with another piece of bread...chip sandwich, very nutritious!
Now Ike:
Thankfully it is looking better for us, but I am never completely comfortable until it gets closer. I don't want to pack everything back up and leave. I would most likely be driving by myself again, which is not fun, because Marcus might stay and work at the hospital. If this does happen please pray that I get to feeling better because I am only going on 4 hours of sleep right now. I started getting sick last night and was not able to sleep. I am also working 9 hour days and I can't miss work, so hopefully I get better.

Infertility Update:
Because of all these Hurricanes and some other things going on, the surgery might get put off a little longer than we want, but we have to just keep moving in the direction God is leading us and have patience.