Fear of Jumping?

For some reason I have not had much to post about lately??? Sorry to the stalkers friends that check every day and there is nothing new to read. Ummm so what am I going to post about???? On the Interior Design side of things...I am going to try out a new paint technique on a piece of free furniture that I have. I just have to set aside some time to do this. Free time....not much of that around these days?!?!?!? I will take before and after pictures and post them as soon as I get around to actually doing it. This will be something that I have never tried before so I am curious how it will turn out?????

I guess it is time for another pondering, lost in thoughts, reflecting post. IF has woken me up to so many things. My life before IF just scratched the surface on so many issues. This was far from what God desired from me. What did my life reflect? What does my life reflect now? I now have the confidence to let it all go and let God handle all of IT!!!! One night at Imprint (Thursday night young adult worship time at our church) the main point of the night was: “Is my confidence in my Father stronger than my fear of jumping??????” I can now say, YES!!!!
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.”
Psalm 34:17-19
I knew what I believed, but I wasn’t living what I believed outwardly. I now wake up every morning craving to be in a deeper relationship with my Heavenly Father, craving to worship Him. I have been through deep sadness. I have been through major storms of life. I have been through the pain that disappointments of this world bring on. But I have also discovered Hope. I have discovered a deeper faith. I have learned that I no longer fear jumping in the arms of the One that is guiding me. I don’t know what else this journey holds, but I do know that it has changed my life in a huge way. Before IF I was a very persnickety person…there is a place for everything and everything in its place!!!!! I have realized that there are so many more important things in life than cleaning my floors every afternoon and making sure my house is prefect. I have let that go! I truly cherish the family and friends that I have in my life and would much rather spend more time with my husband, than cleaning the house. My priorities have changed!

We were suppose to be going on a 4 day trip at the end of May and I was soooo looking forward to being able to getaway (have I mentioned that I need a getaway). Well, that is probably going to be cancelled because the lady I work with, daughter, is due at the end of May and she has let me know that she is going to be taking off of work for quite awhile at the end of May and beginning of June. So a baby (that is not mine) is ruining my long weekend getaway! Also at the first of June is our 5th anniversary and I really wanted to do something special and take a trip, but that will probably not happen either. I am kind of sad because of this but I guess I can’t help it. On another subject, how do you answer the question, “so when are you going to have kids????” Can I just say that when someone asks this I get a pain in the pit of my stomach.


Something to think about: Do we truly have FAITH that GOD can perform MIRACLES? I DO!!!!


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1) My husband was brought home safely Friday night in a huge lightening storm...he was flying in the air..in a plane of course
2) We were able to have a very relaxing day on Saturday, just spending time together
3) Beautiful roses that I got from my grandparents yard...I have a bouquet in every room (even the bathroom)
4) A relaxing week after a very hectic week last week
5) The many calls we have gotten on the jet ski, on the first day we put it out for sale!!! By the way we have a jet ski for sale if anyone is interested????

earth day

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Since today is Earth Day, there has been many television shows about green living and green design. I don't know why but I find all of this very interesting. Since I graduated with an Interior Design degree I have been very interested in green design. There was a show on last night about a guy that lives in the desert and does not have A/C in his house, and I found this to be amazing all the different design features he had in his house. This all makes me realize how little I do, especially by my footprint results. So check your footprint out and see what we can do to minimize this.

Update:

Since I am failing on posting my 365 Days of Grace every day, I am going to just try and do it per post:

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1) Beautiful day that I can just admire the Earth that God made

2) Busy week (no time to get lonely home alone)

3) The hope of a future with kids

4) Time I was able to go out with my sister and mom to eat Mexican (I could eat Mexican for every meal)

5) My flowers are still alive that I planted in my new flower bed (I have a brown thumb)

Flying a Kite

As I was driving back to work from getting lunch, I passed by a local school where they were outside flying kites. It was a beautiful sight...kites everywhere. It brought me back to the days I was going to that very school and flying my kite (it is some project that they must do every year, you build a kite then go outside to fly it). Oh, how things were uncomplicated and everything seemed perfect in my world back in those days. I had a great childhood and many happy memories from my childhood. Don't get me wrong I love my life now, but for some reason when you are an adult you are no longer sheltered from the bad in the world, no longer naive to the things going on around you. Today is such a beautiful day and I wish I was outside flying a kite. I love our Southeast Texas weather! I love being outside and the feeling of the sun hitting my skin (I really don't care how hot it is). Sunlight makes me happy!!!!

Award!

An award!!


Jennifer at LIFE gave me this award. Thanks for the award!!!!

Here Are The Rules:

1. Link Back to the person who gave you the award.
2. List 7 Things you LOVE!
3. Link to 7 Blogs and let them know you have an Award Waiting for them on your blog!

Seven (random and silly) things I love ... not counting family and friends because y'all know I love them:

1) I love coffee (which is decaf now days)

2) I love reality shows on Bravo…Project Runway, Top Model, or whatever is on

3) I love doing Yoga…except I have been on a hiatus lately

4) I love design and changing up rooms in my house (except when I have to do without a toilet for 4 days)

5) I love being outside, doing things outside…it does not matter what it is, I just love being outside!!!!

6) I love the beach…which kind of goes with #5 (it is just so relaxing)

7) I love art, architecture, & photography!!!!


Now I give this to 7 other people....hmmm.....
1. Everything Changes
2. Come Sit a Spell
3. One ADornable Family
4. Empty Vessel
5. Keepin a close watch on this heart of mine
6. My Heart's Testing
7. The Yellow Room

It's Finished!!!!

Finally the finished bathroom!!!!! Let me know what you think?

Before:

After:

I am so happy with how it turned out. It is a very soothing bathroom, just like what I wanted to to turn out like!

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1) The Cross
2) The bathroom is finished
3) 10 hours of continuous sleep I got last night
4) I made it through my prep (Thursday) and procedure (Friday)

5) Crawfish I get to eat on Sunday

Surgery

Our week has been so busy I have had to type everything up into a schedule to keep it all straight. It is Thursday and it is not letting up.

All that is left in the bathroom now is hanging the lights, changing a switch out and touch up paint. I can see the end now!!!!! Hopefully I will be able to post pictures on Monday of the finished project.

Yesterday I had a follow up appointment with my RE to talk about my blood work results and to discuss surgery. Our appointment was at 4:00 and quickly realized that we were going to be waiting for a long time. By 5:00 it was us and another couple waiting, so we asked them what time their appointment was...3:30?!?!?!? She started the day off an hour and a half late!!!! She comes from Webster to Beaumont every Wednesday. Her first appointment in Beaumont was at 10:00 and she did not leave Webster until 9:45! I got called back around 5:30 and was out of there around 6:00. All of my blood work came back normal, even my CA-125 (cancer/endo marker). She still wants to do the surgery; I guess it is more exploratory now but still looking for endo, but also checking uterine lining, blood supply to the uterus and also taking a biopsy while in there. I am prob going to schedule this sometime this summer. We want to take a trip this summer also, so I am going to try and schedule around that.

Today I am on a liquid diet, because I am having a procedure done tomorrow morning....at 5:30am! Hypoglycemia and only liquids don't go good together! I started off this morning hungry and went down from there (headache, weak, dizzy, nauseous) until I decided to drink some chicken broth around 8:00am. I am feeling a little better now, but I think I am going to have to just continue drinking the chicken broth. I think chicken broth and hot tea are going to sustain me for the day. It is funny when you can't eat...all you think about is food! Please pray that they don't find anything tomorrow and that I make it through today!

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1) Chicken broth
2) Hot Tea
3) The hope of being able to take a small trip with my husband
4) Sleeping soundly and not waking up every 30 minutes
5) Caring RE and great staff