Undergoing a change

I have learned so many things about myself through infertility. This is just one small fraction of my undergoing a change. I know this might surprise some of you, but I use to be a very judgmental person. I would look at things certain people were going through and critique the way they were handling the situation. I would say “I would never do that, especially that way!” Wow, how God reveals things to us and makes us reflect on our way of thinking. On some level it is only human to try and think of how we would handle certain circumstances that others are going through. I love this quote from To Kill a Mockingbird, “You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view – until you climb into his skin and walk around in it.” Atticus Finch

We would have to make a complete 180º and truly, I mean truly see situations from their point of view. If we could climb into another’s skin for however long, maybe just a day, then we might understand them and why they choose to do certain things. Maybe we would understand their problems and solutions to those problems. Maybe if we could experience the very heartbreak, every disappointment, and every experience they have gone through that shapes them into the person they are today, then maybe we could then begin to see their lives and decisions. But we can’t do this! Every situation is different and there are so many solutions to those circumstances. I guess I am writing this as a person who is undergoing a change of heart and a way of thinking about things. Do I still struggle with judging others, yes, but it doesn’t take me long to realize that I am not the one to pass judgment. Only God can judge and only God truly knows what we are going through. Just think of what would happen if everyone in our world would stop judging and truly care about others and help them through their struggles and problems.

I am sure people have judged our decisions that we have made throughout our journey, but I accept that as human nature. I would never wish anyone to have to go through the things that we have gone through and made the decisions that we have had to make. Each and every decision was made with deep contemplation and prayer. I can truly say that I would not change a thing, not one decision. I am writing this as a person who has been convicted of one of my many sins and just trying to make others take a deeper look inside at those everyday things we do without realizing.