Thursday, November 20, 2008

Wishes of my heart

God knows what He’s doing for each of us. He is the potter, and we are His clay He will mold us and make us, and expose us to just enough pressures of just the right kinds that we may be made into a flawless piece of work to fulfill His good, pleasing and perfect will. He knows the wishes of my heart, my deep desire for a child, a little one to love and care for. I yearn for those long sleepless nights, changing diapers around the clock and I would gladly give up my shoe money for baby supplies.

This is what I have learned through our infertility:
God is in control and is carrying me through each step, my spirit can’t be broken, Marcus and my love has only grown stronger and closer, I have amazing friends and family, I have to be true to myself and I believe in miracles and the power of prayer.

Whatever the results are I still want to continue to grow in my faith and praise God for this experience. I am truly grateful to be able to go through this very extensive and expensive process. I am in awe when I think of how God has provided for us and has carried us each step of the way.

Okay now to the details. They retrieved 9 eggs from me and they were all mature, which is awesome because most of the time you lose some because they aren’t mature. All 9 were able to be fertilized and have divided right on track. We are scheduled for Saturday morning transfer. We have to be in Webster at 7:45 so that will be a very early morning, but very exciting!!!!! We will be coming home on Monday for a very relaxing week.

The choice of persistence is about setting a goal and reaching it, about coming to roadblock and hurdling over them with God guiding you through it, about continuing the journey in spite of life’s speed bumps.

5 comments:

Heather said...

WOW!! This is so exciting! I am so happy for you and Marcus, and will be praying this weekend!

I am also so encouraged by your faith and persistence through this, you and Marcus are truly an inspiration! What a mighty God we serve!

sweet jenn said...

I don't think I will be able to rest until I know what your results will be...lol...I know this is has been a long process and I just can't believe you are already here and it's two days away...OOO I just got chills...lol...

I love you sooo much and I just can't wait to hear what happens and how God continues to work in your life. How incredible that you are who you are and how God has shaped you.

I will be thinking of you nonstop on Saturday. Ashley Jones and I are going to Houston Saturday (to Cypress) and if I knew where you were gonna be I would stop by and see you, but I know it's gonna be a hectic day and probably very emotional. I will be content to wait till you know something and let us know what's going on or I can talk to you face to face.

You and Marcus are continually in my prayers and I love you both so much...thanks for sharing this journey with us.

Hollie said...

Beautiful post. Your heart is definitely in the right place. LOL about giving up the shoe money. I feel the same way. Stay close to your family and your husband. I'm so glad to hear your fertilization was so wonderful. Good luck and prayers for Saturday. Plus hopefully you'll have some little ones to freeze.

Jessica said...

I agree with hollie, your post was beautiful.

I am very excited for ya'll. You already have 9 little ones waiting to grow!! think about it!! nine!!! I don't know what the future will bring for you, but I know that God has WONDERFUL plans for you and I am so very very excited to see where those plans take you!

thank you for keeping us posted!

Michael Paine said...

This is going to be a very exciting THANKSGIVING for you guys!! 9 eggs good job!!